I had a major, MAJOR realization about something that’s been a big part of my life, and it started with spilling on my tank top last week :)
All I was trying to do was finish my milk & cookies before getting Max up from his afternoon nap. OK fine, I was really devouring an extra cookie [it was an Oreo, if you must know], then gulping the last drop of milk in my glass, when the spill happened. Please tell me I’m not alone in doing this…?
I believe becoming a mother has helped me better prepare for this new phase in life, and ultimately this post.
Since Maxwell was born I have humbly slowed down in so many areas, personal and work included. Interestingly, I’ve also had a few things start tugging on my heart at about the same time, but it’s been really hard for me to pinpoint “why”.
^ my Bauer-boy, who’s been a part of our family for almost 3 years now
Becoming a mother changes you, simply put. And I like to think it’s changed me for the better. It’s heightened my relationship with our parents, it’s made my heart even more soft for children, it’s helped me to pause a bit more often and just be.
To be totally black & white, it’s helped me stop using the “S” word: schedule.
And not only have I stopped using it but I’ve stopped obsessing over it. I’ve stopped trying to keep to the pre-baby work schedule I was used to having. Holding tight to unrealistic expectations has kept me from living this new phase of mamahood; it was keeping me from what God is trying to teach me.
But the heart of the problem is this: keeping to a rigid schedule was interfering with my creativity and the vision of Gussy Sews.
It’s been easy to feel distracted, detached and doubtful. It’s been a hard transition living in Los Angeles. I’m a midwest girl at heart; “the girl next door” [thank you, Kate]. I love to chat and spend time cultivating relationships. That silly “S” word seemed to be getting in the way, all the darn time!
To go even deeper, I want my business to be free of negative things — for however many life chapters it takes.
[Are you still here? You haven’t closed this tab, have you?]
It feels risky [maybe even scary?] to let go of my schedule, but it feels more right than wrong, so I’m going with it…
I used to be able to have specific work tasks that I knew I could accomplish each day, week and month. Now? Now I work in 2-hour increments, not 10-hour increments. Now I am relishing in the “right now” of life, instead of looking so far ahead I’m missing what’s staring back at me.
There’s been so much freedom in this realization, too.
That “S” word? Buh-bye.
^ new product samples, a preview of our upcoming Fall Collection
The other day I mentioned a shop update I’ve been working on and I teased about our Fall collection that will be launching soon. Don’t worry, the collection is still launching, but I’ve decided to break it down into much more manageable updates. Instead of having a couple dozen new products launch all at once, I’m now going to release them in smaller batches — in between spilling on my tank top, in between the quiet moments where God is teaching me, in between found grace.
Smaller, more frequent even?, updates are a more organic process for Gussy Sews, so I’m very much looking forward to this change.
I LOVE being a Handmade Maker.
And because I love it…
Because of the relationships formed…
Because of the trade I’ve truly loved learning the last 5 years…
Because of the places we’ve traveled to thanks to this blog…
Because this community that has supported my family through so much — quitting my day job, sharing blog/business tips, cross-country moves, hiring more help, in praying for a baby and then announcing the birth of our son…
Because I’ve seen God bless our family through this business I know being a Handmade Maker is what He’s calling me to be.
But at the same time, I can’t have a fuzzy focus. And up until last week when I spilled on myself, I’m afraid my focus was very fuzzy.
The purpose of Gussy Sews is to encourage you to take risks, to chase your dreams, to go on adventures, to support handmade and share in life together. Gussy Sews has inspired me just as much as it’s inspired you, I promise :)
So if you’re a blogger or a Handmade Maker, if you’re a mama, a wife, a friend, a sister — whatever wonderful title you carry — I want to encourage you to stop using the “S” word, too.
I’m praying you’ll continue to join me in this next chapter for Gussy Sews.
^ another peek into our Fall Collection: polka dots + chambray = L O V E
HERE’S WHAT I KNOW:
I’m committed to stop making myself stick to a schedule that doesn’t work for me right now, to let go of unrealistic expectations.
I’m committed to stop looking at what’s happening up ahead, because I’ve been missing out on the Right Now.
If you let go of your schedule, I promise you you’ll be able to accomplish so much more.
All you have to do is set yourself free…