Before winter “officially” ends for the season I wanted to share these photos from a family walk we took one morning. Zack had been out of town for a whole week and we missed him dearly, so our next full day back together as a family we loaded our basket of winter gear and went on a nature walk. It was so simple, so deeply needed. The winter air, the sharpness of the icy temperature, the lost glove that needed to be found (mine), the squeals (kids), the pine tree hideout where we were spooked by our kiddos. And at the end, fussiness overcame the littlest one and he wanted to be carried by daddy.
These are the tender ingredients of motherhood in the winter. Last year, it felt hard to get everyone dressed and out the door before someone was “over” the wintery scene. The year prior, it felt even harder to get everyone dressed before my nappers woke up. And the year before that, I had a baby growing in my belly plus three children eager to hold my hand. Playing in the snow wasn’t something I did gracefully; easily.
We leave the house with all the ambition we’re able to muster. We return with rosy, flushed cheeks, eager for warm blankets and togetherness on the couch.
Each additional year of motherhood is a step in the direction of independence, yet also dependence. As I teach them how to do more things on their own (independence), I also teach them more about their Creator (dependence) and all that they are: loved, wanted, created with purpose, never alone. They slowly (prayerfully) step away from me and walk towards Him. It’s a mixture of joy and patience, pain and relief.
But the joy runs deep because He sustains me.
Spring, we are eager to welcome you and all the ways you’ll teach us to stand in righteousness and love.
PS. Perhaps you’ve noticed I’ve been quieter lately on social media, or perhaps you haven’t noticed. This quietness is intentional. I’ve come to realize in the last year I struggle to realize how much of my energy I’m “giving away” without being fully aware I’m giving it away. That is, until I reach the end of my energy tank and I’m zapped of any goodness for the rest of the day. Ooof, it’s a bad scenario.
I do desire to write more, share more encouragement, fully lean into the hardships of life as they come (which offers so much beauty despite the pain, it’s incredible!). But I’m unable to do this when I’m exhausting myself through the noise of social media. So if you enjoy what I write here on my blog, if this format feels like a better fit for your lifestyle, your energy tank, your goodness, please stick around. Or share my blog with a friend! I enjoy contributing to the elements of truth, goodness & beauty. They are such necessary elements for a life lived for His glory :)